The Fella is really, really patient. I know because I test the limits of that patience with some regularity. But how can this be? you ask. You seem as though you are the definition of "delightful" and "easy to live with"! Why thank you, but ...
I'm a bit of a neat freak. I'm a perfectionist. I can be a stress ball because of anxiety.
Also -- and this is the super fun one -- I hate being sick. I hate it when I need help or someone to take care of me, so I will run myself into the ground until someone HAS to take care of me because I'm no longer well enough to take care of myself. Yes, I know this is contradictory, but I can't help it. It's part of my charm.
Of all of my, um, charming quirks, it's that last one that probably tries The Fella's patience the most. Having a very neat and clean house isn't so bad. Having your life partner completely in denial about a rampant respiratory infection until she reaches the point where she can't get out of bed? Notably less enjoyable.
Which leads us to conversations like we had yesterday:
"Are you not able to breathe?"
"Who, me?" (For the record, this fooled NO ONE. We were the only two people here.)
"Yes, you. Is your breathing not good? I feel like you're having a hard time."
"No, I'm good." (This pronouncement was followed by a facial expression that he describes as the not-smile. It's supposed to look like a winning smile, but my "opposite of a poker face" can't pull it off.)
"Yeah, that's what I thought."
"No, I'm okay. I'm not coughing or anything. I'm just tired."
"And really cold?"
"Yeah... how did you know?"
"You're shivering. Please go to bed."
"But I don't --"
"I don't have time to be sick!"
"When has saying that ever actually kept you from getting sick?"
"This could totally be the first time."
"Go to bed."
I went to bed. I feel better today. But the point is, should he have to ask me to take care of myself? No, he should not. Does he HAVE to ask me because I'm a garbage human and he is super patient? Yes, yes he does.
I feel like I won the lottery and he ... got a shitty door prize.